This Insatiable Need

This Insatiable Need

Sometimes I can't stand this insatiable need to give people love
It is frustrating, their refusal to even recognize love
So...
I slip into my artist/dream worlds
and dream/draw pictures of the Beloved One.
Refreshed and relieved of this ache,
I walk again through their paths of mind,
smiling into and accepting this disposition.
Listen, I have everything you need.
I passed unnoticed again
and the insatiable need to give people love overwhelms me again.
I have no control over it.

Sometimes I wish I could permanently slip away from this outflowing
and uncontrollable need to give love
and the awful refusal of love
to sit at my true Mother's feet
happily doing Her bidding
which is Her expression of devotion
But, even my Mother calls me to this loving work
as She has been called.
I can see, that, sometimes She is also frustrated
and dreams/draws me to Her...to pause refreshed.
We are two perfect devotees embracing the One Lover.

Oh Mother, they are calling this need to arise again.
Will this be a moment they recognize their True Love's Face
or another frustrating refusal?

10/19/88