The tension of recognition

There is an incredible parallel tension and understanding
running throughout me, throughout my life There is the
ENLIGHTENMENT, the DIVINE UNDERSTANDING. This
understanding or identity sees Life; is intensely involved
in observing and noticing everything. It has a voice of its
own. It is not a judgmental voice. It doesn’t observe to
decide what is of benefit to the body-mind.It observes
everything to enjoy and bless every-thing as itself. The
Divinity wants to know itself in the human experience but
cannot lose itself: its identity, in the human experience
like humans do. I already always know myself. And in
understanding myself I am free and not bound to the
human experience and need in the way humans
are.Humans hold to life because of need; the need to
experience.They seek meaning in experience. This gives
them connection and identity. I am human, too, yet I am
only Divinity. I live within all the expressions of what a
body enjoys and suffers. I can plan and dream and enjoy
but I am like an actress that knows this is only a part; an
amusement. .I can never forget who I am and though I
can act my part well and have great sympathy for the
character, I know there is no significance in the drama
that is played out. The drama does not reveal more of
me. I am always being myself completely.Without need,
without the search for meaning, the Divine is not held to

life in the way people are held here. In a instant the
usefulness of a part can play out its sense and
discarding the role of the body-mind , even apparently
“my human..my own body mind” feels most natural. But
this is not natural at all to humans; this simple tossing of
the human form is a major trauma and a most
unwelcome outcome or ending. I have come to play. To
know what it is to be human, to experience it most
directly.The tension lies in knowing myself as Divine
Identity, I can accept my humanness but to be human in
its entirety I cannot know myself as Divinity.This is as the
humans say” the catch 22" of my life .I have come to
worship myself as human.I am always understanding. I
cannot learn to understand. Of what use can I be to
others, then? I observe the human life. I observe my
own human life as well but I am always recognizing
everyone as they truly are: THE DIVINE, as I AM. I always
know who they really are while they think they are truly
the part, the character, the role...the one who
struggles...the one that must overcome conflict to
become happy...to become them-selves more.What can I
do with this tension of this recognition? I want to explode
its knowingness but impact of understanding must be
welcomed like a lover welcomes his sweetheart to his
body as an entrance to his soul. Know-ingness of true
identity cannot appear in a role or experience. It cannot

be a threat. It cannot be resolved. It can only be
recognized. There is no part to be played even that of
messiah or guru. There is only recognition. Oh, what can I
do? I am already happy, already happy with your
recognition of yourself, of me. I am too happy, too happy
to be human, that gives me away. Will the recognition
come for you? I will be human another day. I know myself
today.You enter my life, human as human we touch. You
do not suspect it but the angel of recognition flies you to
the room of mirrors wherein the crystal conducts the rays
of this original sin. The original sin is not knowing and
recognizing the ORIGINAL ONE. I hold in my heart this
tension of understanding for you. She enters the scene. It
begins.....