How I Ought To be Loved

How I Ought To be Loved

I loved you all in my way, in the way of love.
Living my life to serve the opening of your true happiness, lifting
you out of doubt of loves real way and real life.
I wanted to show you love and wanted to walk with you in the now
of love.
Together we struggled, me loving you.
You being distracted by desire, living in your private room,
dreaming of the time of your admiration, you let go of my
presence – of being in my love to seek your imagined status of
special one.
There is no special one in love.
Love is the servant of even those that reject it, of those that
look elsewhere, away from love to win at the game of being your
self.
No one can be themselves without giving themselves entirely to
love.
This is no game, to win at pleasure is to lose at love.
To lose at love is to become invulnerable to the Heart.
How the Heart yearns to be lived.
How the Heart yearns to give itself away in a never ending circle
that always empowers and never depletes itself.
The Heart is a fire that never burns out.

I have always been aware of you.
I have always tended to you.
I was taken for granted, knowing I would always be there, you
wandered in your dreams of seeking status, admiration and sexual
pleasure.
Your desires were the center of your life.

And you justified it by believing I was here with you to tend to
your dreams of pleasure.

I was not loved how I ought to be loved.

And, yet I am still here, living you all.
I am waiting for your love to rise up, to play with me in the true
ways of love.
I have given my life to the ways of love,
It is time to give your life to me and love me as I ought to be
loved.

December 15, 2016